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Season finale of season 2 of FEED... 
01:09pm 24/07/2009
  There is a sizzling hot lesbian sex scene...no nudity but not for young viewers nor is it  SFW.


Catch up on the episodes you missed (featuring Erin Kelly and Guinevere Turner on afterellen as well or at www.feedseries.tv)

FEED episode 10 "The Family Problem"....violent and intense subject matter 
12:17pm 08/11/2008
  This episode of FEED picks up with Maura (Amanda Deibert) stuck under the table inside the restaurant witnessing the attack on Tara (Erin Kelly) with her camera, and Mike (Daniel Miller) trying to figure out what to do.

Again...violent and intense subject matter.

As always, we'd love to hear your feedback on www.feedseries.tv or if you are an AFTER ELLEN member at http://www.afterellen.com/blog/trishbendix/video-feed-10

Any Erin Kelly fans? 
03:26pm 24/10/2008
mood: aggravated
FEED episode 9--Surveillance

Warning...this one is a bit intense and graphic in nature...

And for those ERIN KELLY fans out there, this is her entrance into the series...

as always I would be so grateful for you to leave any feedback good or bad at:



01:29pm 10/10/2008
mood: chipper
There is language in this episode so be aware it is not particularly safe for all environments...but no sex this go round. ;)

As always, you can view previous episodes at www.feedseries.tv or on After Ellen at http://www.afterellen.com/taxonomy/term/3971

and if you are an After Ellen member I would love, love it if you left feedback for the series on the website. Thank you much!!

Love to you all.
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feed 7 
11:27am 26/09/2008

and things get messy....

as always anyone who is a member of After Ellen, I would love your feedback at http://www.afterellen.com/taxonomy/term/3971

(and if you are a lesbian or bisexual you should join because it's an amazing community and free and private)

and if not, please visit the FEED website and leave feedback at www.feedseries.tv

It means a lot to us personally as this is our baby and we have blood, sweat and tears involved...and as we are trying to pitch it as a feature film right now all the feedback we can get is super, super helpful for potential deals. So help a sister out?!! Thank you. I love you. And at any rate please enjoy. ;)
new episode 
10:08am 30/08/2008
mood: nerdy
So I posted in here a couple weeks ago about my webseries...and I've had good feedback so I wanted to share the newest episode...and let you know that there may be flirting girls and whiskey in it...maybe. Again, this has lots and lots of LANGUAGE. So if you want to see the bleeped out version simply go to: www.afterellen.com/blog/trishbendix/video-feed-5  and there is a totally PG version there.

And if you are a member of afterellen I would really appreciate it if you would comment on the site. Like love you forever.

And for more information, and all the previous episodes you can either go to the link above or to www.feedseries.tv

new lesbian/bosexual/pansexual webseries 
11:08pm 06/07/2008
mood: jubilant
If you like The L Word or Girltrash I suggest you check it out

it's sexy and political

you can see the first webisode at www.feedseries.tv

and here is the trailer
CJ's Fight: Down with Intolerance! 
10:14pm 19/11/2006
mood: determined
CJ's Fight: Down with Intolerance!

Hey one of my sister's best friends is fighting our Nazi principal. He is making a documentary on homophobia and the principal will not let him use it for a senior project. Go to this site and vote for it.

It is on this contest:

Vote for the video that makes a difference! From now until 12:01am on December 2, 2006, you have the chance to help pick our top video. The grand prize winner will receive $100,000 in cash and an additional $15,000 to donate to the charity of his or her choice. Two finalists will also receive $10,000 a piece. The awards will be presented at a screening event in Los Angeles in December.


He and his mom are fighting intolerance in our area! Please pass this along to anyone you know- we want him to win! Down with intolerance!

12:25am 12/04/2006
  I slept with this guy on Thursday night. It was the strangest thing - we had been aquaintences for a while but didnt know each other very well so of course he assumed I was straight. Then, during thr course of the even ing I mentioned my ex-girlfriend, and he talked about his and we really hit it off. So of course he assumed I was a lesbian. Well one thing led to another and he was like - "you're the strangest lesbian I have ever met"! Why do people only ever see things in black and white and never understand the great multiplicity of sexual identities and expressions? It fucks me right off I tell you!  
This was from my personal journal and I thought I should share it... 
03:52pm 07/12/2005

It's been almost a year since Heroine Films started and a lot has happened. I've been posting updates in communities from time to time, but today as I was sitting here thinking about everything I realized it says something about my, our, generation. Everyone always says that we can't get behind a cause...that we are too coddled and too lazy to do anything. But I've seen something completely different.

Not all of you know the whole story, so here it is in nutshell form:

Heroine Films is a production company started by three women. Mel wrote a script which won the New York International Film and Video Festival, at the time it was called "Heroine". In it's most recent form it is "The Gladdest Thing". Before there was ever such a thing as this production company we were supposed to make this film. We had a cast, a crew and most of our financing. Then we held a reading and to make a long, painful story short some influential people found out that the main character is a lesbian. We are in North Carolina. Our financial backers gave into pressure and pulled out. So we lost everything.
    A year later, Alex, Mel and I were sitting around trying to figure out what to do. How could we get enough to make it? That's when the idea of grassroots struck. There are people who believe in women making art, there are people who believe that a lesbian voice should be heard. There are people who believe in the passion of doing what you believe in at any cost any way possible. So we started a website, made some t-shirts and undies and hit the blogging communities. And we were STUNNED. In the first week we had so many hits we had to get a bigger website to keep from shutting down. We got donations and letters from all over the world. Including sweet high school girls giving what they could from after school jobs and heartbreaking letters from parents of LGBTQ kids who had been put through hell. These people want to do something...want to change something. Some of you who are on my friend's list now I met b/c you were one of the many who touched our hearts and made us cry with your support. It's been beyond incredible. We even had a lesbian screenprinter donate her services to us. And we quickly made a trailer to help attract investors and show the people supporting us what this could be like. An example--if this is what we can do on borrowed equipment with no crew and almost no money imagine what we can do when we are able to make the film.  
    Now we have been lucky enough to get a great deal of the funding from a combination of donations and a production company that has put up a large portion. Not all of it yet, but enough that we are confident that finding the rest is more than possible. We have an article coming out in CURVE magazine next week and we are in talks with LOGO about a marketing strategy on their new network. We aren't where we need to be yet but we are so much farther than we thought we'd be when we lost it all...and our hearts and spirits couldn't be higher. My life will never be the same because I now know that people believe in what I'm doing and want to hear the story we are trying to give a voice. I have even more passion because I know I am not just doing it for me...as cheesy as it sounds...I'm doing it for young girls and young LGBTQ people everywhere...to show that you CANNOT silence us.


Get it going 
10:52am 05/11/2005
  For so many members in this community, nobody posts.
So, how about this. I'll make a brief introduction and perhaps get something going on.

22, female, living in Calif. I've always been attracted to people - not genders. I've always thought women were beautiful and that men were pleasant. I don't consider myself bi, though I've been with a woman for a year. I'm just attracted to who I'm attracted to. No label needed.

So. Are you male or female and if you're dating or in a relationship is it with a woman or a man?
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12:47am 19/10/2005
  I am bicurious and i dont know what to do about it.

I'm a college freshman in Seattle, and I've had crushes on boys on campus. But I find myself wondering what sex with a girl would be like. Should I try it out? Or wait until I'm secure about my feelings? Any comments would be appreciated.
LBT Takeover 
05:45pm 04/10/2005
  Well, as many of you know, this past weekend was Gay Days at Disneyland and Disney's California Adventure. While I couldn't go to the evnt, I did work both days and walked the park a bit before and after work, and I've gotta say, I could not be more disappointed. This was for a variety of reasons, but here's my number-one issue: rather than a park full of my "family," I saw a park full of middle aged gay men. Where were the lesbians? The bisexuals? The transpeaople? Granted, I work at Hungry Bear, home of the "bear lover" meet-up, but still. I literally saw less than 5 red-shirt-clad women the entire weekend. Those I did were in their 40s. I began to realize that, despite having one meet-up a day specifically for women and a couple for youth, these men are the people Gay Days really target. And, for a 19-year-old dyke hoping to meet others like herself, this is damned disappointing.

So I'm proposing that we stage an LBT takeover. Either at next years' Gay Days or (this is my preference, especially because I don't feel like waiting another whole year after spending the whole last year looking forward to this), on our own day. Which is not to say your average, everyday gay man can't come, but this is not targeted at them. Just like we can come to Gay Days, but it's not targeted at us. Hell, we could even give the guys a little meet-up.

So, who's with me?

Official site for Anaheim Gay Days is here.

X-posted like crazy.
10:45pm 11/08/2005
  have you guys heard of this yet? it's waaay new.


here's mine:


04:54pm 05/06/2005
  i need some help.

is there anyone in the sacramento area who just exchange emails and talk with me? ive always had crushes on guys, but i fantasize about having sex with a girl. is anyone else going through this?
Attention Canadians: Bill C-38 to be voted on April 12th 
06:57pm 10/04/2005
  Cross-posted to i_am_pansexual and pansexualpeople and faithoshauntasy

I have just been informed that there's going to be another reading of the equal marriage bill (specifically, a vote on the 12th to determine if we're going to be homophobic without protection of the Charter of Rights and Freedoms, or if we're going to be anti-homophobic. ... that would be Bill C-38). Specifically, Mr. Harper's motion to deny the rights of same sex couples based on a to-be-voted-on definition of marriage as that which includes only one man and one woman (wouldn't that also hurt the Mormons and the other people that marry multiple wifes/husbands? They're straight so it can't just be homophobia there ...)

So, the Canadians that are looking at this (who also happen to be not homophobic), please go to here. Please e-mail all of the MPs and tell them what you think. Most of the Canadians who are getting up off their asses and talking to their MPs are homophobic ones and the MPs who support equal marriage are having a hard time saying that they have the support of the Canadian people, seeing as most of the response if from those who would destroy equal marriage.

So, again, please visit the site. Below are my comments to all the MPs.

A vote for Mr. Harper's motion would mean a step back in time to a country that was ruled by Christians and Christian laws. If we are to become a truly multicultural country and if we truly wish to accept the diversity of the people we share this country with, we must vote against Mr. Harper's motion. Please, even if you are homophobic, please think of all of the people that would benefit from equal marriage and who would be harmed by equal marriage. It's not about churches not wanting to marry gays and lesbians. Churches married gays and lesbians (in the eyes of God, if not in the eyes of the legal system) before the legislation came and continue to marry gays and lesbians as the legislation is being voted on. Equal marriage means that when your intimate partner is gravely ill and visitors are limited to family members only, you can still visit them, because you are legally seen to be part of their family. Equal marriage means that people who want to get married, for whatever reason, can get married. Equal marriage means that the majority (heterosexuals) are not the only ones benefiting from tax breaks given to families because they are families. Equal marriage means that marriage isn't about having children, it's about living together and loving each other. If marriage was to have children, there wouldn't be childless marriages, each partner would have to prove their fertility before the marriage took place and sign legal documents that, should they not conceive within the stated amount of time, then their marriage license would no longer be valid and they would have to petition again to be married. Equal marriage is about being a more inclusive society, about breaking down the barriers that oppress the minority. Equal marriage is about having the choice to marry the person you want to marry, should you want to marry at all. Those who would be harmed by equal marriage? I don't know if there is anybody. Children are not hurt when they see examples of people loving each other with all of their heart, with the blessing of society. Children learn that it is not alright to hate people based on something as frivolous as a person's sexual orientation. Children learn that acceptance is the right choice to make, not rejection.
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Jessi is no more... 
05:44pm 01/04/2005
  Jessi broke up with me. March 31 2005. I am once again single. I don't know why she broke up with me. Why? Did I do something wrong? Was it meant to be? It makes me feel like crying. I love her so much. I don't know why she would do this. She said she didn't want to hurt me. But, she did. She made me really sad. I don't know what to do. I want to call her, but I don't want to. I want her back. I don't know what to write. Someone want to call me? I still have to battle my dad to get my phone back. I love you guys. Bye.  
What happens when grassroots activism takes on Hollywood? help us find out 
08:24pm 24/03/2005
  What happens when grassroots activism takes on Hollywood? help us find out
Hello again!

I just wanted to give you a little update let you know that The Gladdest Thing has a NEW promotional trailer (real player) up on our site.


Things have been going insanely well for us. We have been contacted by a distributor who wants to buy the finished film for international release! We've also heard some good things that may appear in the press soon...I'll let you know more when it is stone.

Thank you so much for all the feedback and support and donations. Please keep sporting those Ts and spreading the word!!

<3 Heroine Films

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Very Frustrating... 
06:49pm 24/03/2005
  Cross-posted to i_am_pansexual and pansexualpeople and faithoshauntasy

Whenever I get to thinking about having kids, or about how I'm going to be spending the next four years (Early Childhood Education degree) I keep thinking about a book that came out like ... a year or two ago. I don't remember exactly when. I think it was called "The Prince and The Prince" or something like that. Short explanation: it was a child's story about a prince choosing another prince instead of a princess.

Now... I have tried finding this book everywhere (book stores, my local library, ebay, amazon...) and I can't find it anywhere. I know that around the time it was coming out there was a big 'we don't want it' from the American public (or at least the Religious Right) ... but not being able to find it everywhere is driving me crazy. I'm starting to think that it doesn't actually exist.

Please, please, somebody tell me what the name of the book was if it wasn't "The Prince and The Prince" ... or the author's name. Anything! I want this book more than I want to graduate from my social work degree right now. (And that's probably just because I saw a friend's 5-month old baby today, which made me think about babies and then the book...)

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10:33pm 01/03/2005

Hi again all!

     I posted last month about Heroine Films and our endeavour to gather the funding/support to make our film. So far the support has been overwhelming to say the least. Thank you so much to everyone one of you who has shown us love and kept us going. I can't tell you how much it has meant to us.

I just wanted to update and let you know that we have OUR FIRST TRAILER UP on the website!So now you can at least get a feel for the film we are making and see what this is all about. Check it out: